"He settles the barren woman in her home
as a happy mother of children.
Praise the Lord."
- Psa 113:9 -
For many years I read this verse as a promise to be taken literally, and I waited on the Lord to fill my home with more children. My daughter wanted a little half-brother or -sister, too! However, over the last 10 years or so, this Word has served to alternatively confuse, anger, and depress me. I've even (to my shame) scorned the Lord. "Yeah right."
I've been drawn to this section of the Psalms lately, and the Lord has given me a new revelation.
While I got settled in my new home, God was preparing my church home for me, and me for my new church home.
As I reluctantly gave up on the promise of giving birth again and prayed to understand His will, the Lord was preparing a place for me in the midst of his children, and preparing me to recognize and accept that place.
Today, I read Psalm 113 again, and did praise the Lord. He has fulfilled his promise, but not in the way I thought I wanted, or even expected. Me? Teach children? NO WAY! Or so I thought four years ago.
But He has settled this barren woman in her home at FBC as the happy "mother" (teacher, leader, friend) of many children.
And I couldn't be happier.
Praise the Lord. He is always faithful - lots of time in unexpected and delightful ways.
Here are a few of " my"" many children:
"God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes." Psalm 18:24 (Msg)